My friend leaves town next week. She heads off to an amazing college to do amazing things, miles and miles away from home. Distraught isn't the feeling - I'm heartbroken. I need not to be selfish in these final moments with one of my greatest friends I've come across and spent my childhood with. I need to embrace and cherish these moments - sobbing does no good.
You don't appreciate your friends truly until you have them torn away from you. The regrets I have of fighting with my friend and not speaking for weeks on end will haunt me forever - all that time we could have spent creating memories were wasted. Over what? Pointless and petty arguments that result in nothing but hurt feelings and guilt. It's pathetic really.
I truly don't know whether to laugh or cry. Laugh at all the hilarious moments where we'd laugh until tears were streaming and our stomachs aching, or to cry that we won't have those moments for a very long time; I find myself doing both.
Having my little companion with me throughout school has been an honour, and I cannot express how proud I am that she is going away to pursue the path in life she has dreamed of. Thank you so much for everything you have done for me, making me angry, happy, sad, and ecstatic, every single day. I love you.
What I'm trying to say is appreciate all your time with your best buddies. Don't hold onto grudges, hold onto the laughs, the little inside jokes only you and they get. Hold onto them.
A year on and I feel the same –
I still miss seeing your smile every day and hearing the ancient jokes we told.
Things have indefinitely changed; but you’re there for me whenever.
I still know you’re by my side.
But most of all, I know you’re happy... and that we've both moved on.